Goodbye;

Goodbye to this blog.

I'm starting FRESH.

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-Lisa

Unsatisfied.

Where'd all the holiday spirit go? Christmas just past and by far it was one of my worst.. Sure, I got everything I'd ask for that was on my list (which wasn't even a lot to begin with) but getting things, doesn't make it any better. I'm not going to blame the snow for the lack of family togetherness.. I'm not going to blame growing up because that is inevitable, but I am going to say that the families have drifted and no one really seems to be as close anymore.

I miss the traditional holiday parties when you'd dress up!, waking up at 10 to help cook, staying up 'till 2 am just because we all wanted to and no one wanted the nights to end. I miss how CLOSE we all once were and how much we needed each other for support, for guidance.

What happened?

That's the only question I want answered. Maybe it all seemed better when we were younger.. but as look as the younger generation of kids in my family, I feel sorry for them. They're not going to have traditions to do, memories/places to reminisce on, silly games of imagination. Now a day all the kids are consumed in all the high-tech things and getting all the best of the best, which they get because of their parents spoiling them. Yes, I said it. When I was 7 I felt lucky to get 1 barbie doll. And that's all I ever wanted too.

And as I'm turning back the time, I remember Christmas's started to change once my Grandpa passed away. He was always the one that picked out the biig tree (with the input of the his grandchildren but we'd always pick the goofy looking one's). Christmas's were held at his house and we'd do those Santa cards, bake cookies and hope we get all we wished for. When I come to think of it, I've stopped decorating trees after he past. I remember the mis-matched lights in which most lights didn't work. The random ornaments and the many candy cane's we'd put on the tree but would slowly disappear when Christmas day started to arrive.

I miss my Grandpa the most at Christmas time.

Well now it seems it's time for New Years.. time to re-evaluate goals and try to better one's self..

-Lisa

[pictures of Christmas 2007]

Christmas Day.

Christmas just doesn't feel like well, Christmas anymore.

Merry Christmas Eve.

Whoever said, "You don't know what you have until it's gone" is wrong, because you know exactly what you have when you have it, you just don't know how much you need it until you can't have it anymore.

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I've come to a sad realization today.. Tradition is lost, sometimes family isn't everything to keeping a strong bond but it sure helps, the people you thought that would be with you 'till the end of time will break your heart; (regardless if they mean to or not), promises are broken,and you can always, always forgive..but never forget.

It's only takes one thing to make me feel this hurt. Yes, I say its okay. Who am I to stop happiness? But they sure can stop mine. I act like it doesn't bother me, when ever single day I can't help but think of how much I miss my.. bestfriend. I miss the way things used to be. It's hard to believe how it all changed in an instant. I don't want to say that I'm putting up walls or burning bridges, but I am going to keep my wall down and keep that bridge open..

I find it really hard to think that the one person I would go for practically everything, tell everything to, spend as much free time with.. was no longer there anymore. When I pick up the phone its hard not to dial those number and say, "Hey, why can't we turn back the time?"

It's too bad life doesn't work that way. Time is moving on and I need to move on with it.

But these memories, this lesson, I'll forever hold onto.

-Lisa

Hidden..Make it Right!

I think everybody has brokenness. There's no doubt about that. We live in a fallen world. This is not heaven. Everybody has scars. Everybody is hurting somewhere. I guarantee you that. Everybody has a hidden hurt..

Some days just go by and sometimes you just don't know where to turn, who to go to. All you can do is pick up your pieces.

I'm trying to take advantage of this whole no school/snow day cancellations. No stress, just relaxing, Right?. . . WRONG. I still have so much do be done by the new year and I'm not even sure where to start. With all the projects and make-up work I need to get done.. Not to mention, I want to set some new goals! I guess that's the most exciting part.. being able to start over. It's like an easy way to take the short cut, to cheat and say, "Hey! Look, I'm putting things in the past and this new year is going to be different.." Yeah, everyone can talk, but proving it is a whole different thing completely.

Anywayyyy, I don't want to get all caught up in that right now.. I wanna make it past Christmas first! I finished most of the shopping yesterday for all the cousins in my family..well the ones that are 5 years and under. Considering the crazy snow we're getting.. I was trying to get in the mall, finishing all the shopping and be done. But that's not how it went. I spent nearly 3 hours there =/ What a headache, But it's what you gotta do.

I really do find that a lot of the younger generations in my family are very spoiled, so I'm not even sure if the gifts I got them will even make an effect on them. It's just one more thing they can open up and than put aside. I want to see them be more appreciative, I would've killed to get a barbie dream house at their age! =/ Oh wells.

My parents keep asking me what my sister and I want. But when it comes down to it, I don't really ask for much. Considering that I already have what I need from them.. but to be a little greeedy, I would love to go and get my hair done *highlights! & a few pics :)
From CathyJeans! I'm a 6!

From Juicy!

A new KathyVanZeenland purse.

Any cute graphic Tee's :) Size; Small


I want colored washed jeans from PacSun! I'm a size Zer0! :)

-Lisa